Dear Diary, it’s been a long time since my last blog…

I feel like I’ve had a gray cloud hovering over my head for the last few weeks or so. I haven’t been sleeping well. I don’t know if it’s menopausal or what. All of this vaxxers vs. non-vaxxers is exhausting. And I can’t believe we’re well into August already. It seems like we just celebrated our kids’ graduation and now the next school year is just around the corner. Will there be a school year? For one, definitely. He’s set to leave for college in a couple weeks. Yay! For the remaining two, still not sure yet. No matter how much prodding, reminding, and nagging, BOTH have no motivation to do anything. And it’s giving me anxiety over the uncertain future ahead. Anxious Me does not process annoying situations well. I get crabby. Crabby Me gets snappish at anything, anyone, anytime. Not so fun for those around me.☹️

Things I would usually take in stride now irritate the shiatzu out of me. It’s kinda like roommate syndrome. It ranges from simple things like loud chewing or crunching when eating, to the constant complaining about things that are not in our control like the weather, or the same damn complaints just a different day. And don’t get me started on having to listen to the neurotic nit-picking about the tiniest things that to me, are stupid in the first place. Usually, I’d listen and offer support when I could. Now, my fuse is short. My eye is twitching. And in my mind, I’m shooting darts at foreheads when these things happen.

For the most part, I like to think of myself as an optimist. I don’t necessarily look at everything positively, but instead, when faced with crappy situations, I’ll try to deal with them in a positive way. Therefore, I’m taking a step back to find my Zen. If I seem antisocial, this is why. I’m purposefully avoiding the triggers so I can focus on making the uncertainty more certain. And hopefully in a couple of weeks my head will be back in the right place. I’ll return soon. Peace out.✌🏼